Daar is seker niks meer depressing op hierdie ou aardetjie van ons as n moeder wat nie weet hoe om haar kind te help nie.

My seun en ek het die naweek so n gang conversation gehad, jy weet mos daardie soort waar jy mekaar in die gang sien, elkeen op pad na sy eie bestemming.  Ek het gevra of hy oraait is, want ek kan sien hy lyk nie lekker nie, sy antwoord was heel eenvoudig …

“Ma unemployment is a reality”

Net daar het my hart weer in stukkies gebars, n ouer se hande is afgekap, maak nie saak waar jy soek of watter kant toe jy draai nie, daar is net nie werk vir mense vandag nie.  Ek weet dit is n wereldwye kwessie, maar wraggies om ons kinders so te sien ly is nie lekker nie.

Ek het net daar vir hom gesê kom ons gesels n bietjie, sy antwoord weer was ..

“not much to chat about”

Hy is n bondeltjie vreugde 99.9999% van die tyd, maar soms vang dit hom.  Ek het so rukkie terug n simpel grap met hom gemaak en gevra wanneer trou hy dan en wanneer sal ek ooit Ouma kan word, hy sal hierdie jaar 27jaar oud wees, hy het net gelag en gesê ek behoort self daardie antwoord te ken, geen man met verstand sal trou, huis probeer opsit en dan nog n kind verwek en probeer grootmaak wanneer hy nie n vaste werk het nie.

Die jongetjies en selfs minderjariges en self die ou mense met kennis, sit en wag soos die mense van die Titanic wat gesink het, sit en wag vir uitkoms.

Ek weet meeste kry hier en daar n werkie, vir n week of n maand of so, maar dan is dit weer klaar, my seun probeer selfs dingetjies op sy eie, maar die mense se beursies is leeg so daar word net die nodige uitgegee.

Mag elkeen wat vandag met daardie euwel worstel hul berusting vind deur te weet dit gaan nie oor die persoon nie, maar oor die omstandighede.

Daarom dat ek reken, dis moeilik, man, dis moeilik.

Maar  …….

God is good all the time, all the time God is good.




Sunday 14 May 2017, Mother’s Day … Tuesday 16 May 2017 normal day at work.

I kinda missed a whole day.

I had a lovely Sunday with family and friends, a great lunch and great conversation.

Sunday evening just as good, off to bed and woooow, woke up early Monday morning, still dark and night outside.  Sick as a dog, no, come to think of it, sicker.

I will not go into details but I slept through most of the day and the times I woke up, I felt so sick, I wished myself to sleep again, or if be it, just to have a quick transition to the Ever-loving arms of Jesus, not kidding, I was feeling ready to go.

A lot of sleep and some medication later, I had a good night’s sleep and YES miracles do happen, I woke up this morning feeling myself again.

It is in times like this that when you feel ready to say goodbye, that when you are feeling better again, however long or short your healing time, then you appreciate everything even more.

So great to be back, and happy to be rowing with me fellow slaves again.

Must have been a 12/24 hour virus or my body just decided it is time to take a break, whatever the reason, I am happy to be alive.


The Top 5 reasons to be a Preterist

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Daily Evotionals & E'isms

It has been 3 ½ years since I came to the knowledge of the truth of Preterism. One reason that I can be sure of its truth is that I came to the conclusion on my own after reading the Book of Revelation about 20 times through 2013. It wasn’t until after I came to the conclusion that I even heard the term Preterism and begin to make one Preterist friend after the other.
In fact I even asked myself, “what if the Second Coming already happened?” That’s when the revelation hit me that I was living in two kingdoms: the invisible spiritual kingdom of the Christ and the man made political kingdom of the world that most people are too focused on. Sadly I believe there are too many Christians that are too distracted by this kingdom to even be aware of what God is doing in this world.

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It’s Wednesday …

It’s been a while since I wrote anything on here, not that nothing was happening inside my head or my life, as a matter of fact, it has been buzzing …

This morning I feel the need to let people know that you do not have to suffer in silence, and definitely not in public. Work through your problems, come to an understanding and then move on with your life.  The idea is to not cry over spilt milk for too long, try drinking your coffee black for a while, it can only be good for you, and then once you feel ready just go to the darn shop and get a fresh milk, and please, not that wanna-be skimmed or low fat milk, go big or go home, get the Full Cream Yummy milk, you deserve it.

Take what life offers you as a treat, a lesson, whatever.  Keep the good and let go of the bad.

Life is like the moon, most of us go through phases.

Nothing wrong with those who are always in full moon mode, but whatever phase you are in at this moment in your life, keep the faith, you will reach full moon again.

So that’s my advice for today.

BE HAPPY, it’s a choice.



NOT my recipe but too good to not share ..


3 cups of mashed potatoes
2 eggs
1/3 cup sour cream (optional extra for serving)
1 heaping cup shredded sharp cheddar cheese
2 tablespoons grated Parmesan
2 tablespoons chopped chives or parsley
Salt and black pepper, to taste

1 – Preheat oven to 400 degrees F.
2 – Lightly grease with butter 8 – 9 of the wells of a nonstick muffin pan.
3 – In a medium mixing bowl whisk the eggs then mix in the sour cream. Stir in both cheeses and the chives. Add potatoes and mix well.
4 – Spoon them into the pan filling the cups to slightly below the top.
5 – Bake 25- 35 minutes until they pull away from the sides of the cup and are golden brown. Remove from oven and let them cool 5 minutes in pan. Serve with sour cream if desired.
Yummy  😀





I took a picture of myself this morning, yes, a selfie, I do it all the time, but this one was different.

I could see the change in my eyes, my face,

I feel more happy, content, knowing that it is over from my side,

Knowing that I don’t have to keep on begging for attention,

Keep on begging for a visit

What I saw in this picture of myself proved to me that I am doing the right thing.

The saying goes, be careful how you treat a loved one, once the head leaves, the body is soon to follow.  In my case the body was never in the picture, this friendship was all done via phone, messages, video chats.  So it was all head.  So leaving is difficult for my emotional being, but at least the physical was never established.

We often, well more often than not, believe that when you are busy with a certain stage or level, in your life, that what you are doing at that time is just so right, everything feels right so it must be right.

But then little things keeps rearing its ugly head, you ask, but nothing is being done, you ask again and again but the more you ask, the more you feel like a nagging cow.

The worst part is when you are being blamed for everything, I know there is a name for this, and I believe that everyone ever in the same situation knows the name for this type of friendship.  I can admit this to myself now. I know the saying goes, you can only blame yourself, but still ….

I have been through many of these over-bearing, downright abusive friendships to know when a good thing is turning bad, and unfortunately what has been said or felt can never be unsaid or unfelt again.

I refuse to be responsible for other people’s shortcomings, I refuse to take responsibility for their bad life choices, I refuse to be lied to again and I refuse to listen to excuses that makes no sense at all.  Don’t tell lies in the beginning to get my attention, it will always come back to haunt you. I need and want someone who is honest and open from the start, let me know exactly where I stand and I will not have any expectations.

I am the type of person that will react and act on what is being told or dished up to me.

I am not going to let it upset me any longer, I will let the river flow towards the sea, I will not push it or pull it in any direction, it will eventually end up in the sea or in a dry bed.

My motto in life, keep the good memories and let go of the bad.  We are all here to learn our life lessons, I have been through a lot of lessons, I do learn, some I learn fast and some I have to have repeat lessons just so I can get the big picture.  But hey, I study and do the practical time and time again, I know that I am moving forward and that the next stage in my life I will enter with fresh material and more knowledge gained.  I am a romantic by heart, so I do believe that every time you love, you love deep and intense, but when that dream shatters, you pick up the pieces, stick them back together and just be your awesome self.

So yes, what I saw this morning is my happy content face smiling back at me. A face free of any troubles and free of self-doubt.

I am happy with myself again.


Tussen Stasies ….

Ja Nee Nou toe nou …

Vandag is weer een van daai dae. Ek het nou al amper als getry vandag om myself happy te hou.
Ek weet, ek weet, happiness is “an inside job” maar party dae is minder maklik as ander.

Met n lied in my hart opgestaan, n vroeg oggend boodskap het n glimlag na my gesig gebring.

Darem n paar woordjies met my seun kon wissel, things to do and places to go is gewoonlik hul verweer.

Boek gelees, hier en daar n ietsie gedoen en selfs n movie gekyk…..

Maar steeds voel vandag nie lekker nie. Ek weet daar is n gaatjie wat gevul moet word, dis net die “filling” wat kort.

Mense kom en gaan in jou lewe, net so kom en gaan jou ook deur ander se lewens.

Die lewe is soos n treinrit, nie almal bly tot aan die einde in jou kompartement nie, so geniet dit wat almal met jou deel, geniet dit vir so lank en vir so ver hul kaartjies strek.

Ek glo net die tyd het nou aangebreek dat ek erens by n stasie moet afklim en langer bly.